conversation with myself

whats you thinkin about b
i dunno everything
i dont know where to start im scared
why
i dont know
why
because im scared ive never been shown how to do this stuff
why is it scary if youve never done it
i dont know what to expect
whats wrong with that
nothing
why would it be bad
it may not be but im scared ifi it is
why would you think it is
because i dont know
you dont know so you make up its going to be scary
yeah
why
because thats what i think
why do you think that
i dunno it just seems weird
why
because it seems like it should be easier
why
i dunno i just wish it was
it is
brittney its all here its all there its all now its all present its here
your remedy
its all here
start
start start u need to start what u know what you need
i have shit that i need to do and i feel like i cant fully try to be in (. ) life cause im not fully in my life right now i need to figure these things out and figure my stuff out so i can take care of us
clearing everything
buying a house
teaching others
travelling on my whim at any means

what do you need to do
get my life figured out
i need to figure out who i am and what im doing
i dont know who i am right now
i do but im not fully expressing
im coming from lack/feeling less
why not?
because i feel like i should be somewhere else
on a better level
im there just not there u know
yes you are here britt
youre the only one thats holding you back
this is all you
this is you creating everythought
its all immediate playback
so keep going and ill keep following in line
habit
its a true thing
u need to keep preaching b
theres some ppl that need to hear what you have to say