I am at present the woman I once dreamed of becoming

Here I am realizing holy fudge I am the woman I once dreamed I'd be

And I guess, I always was. 

In absolute truth

I at times would image myself and I would say at this point I am better than I used to think I'd be at this age. 

I just like to sit here and appreciate myself sometimes. 

As god would say. 

You know.

I have a history inside that is remembering forgetting and remembering an eternal process